I’ve really needed a friend..

These past few days have been rather odd for me. I started slipping back to my old self, my old horrid way of thinking. I’ve really needed a friend, my best friends are absolute diamonds and one of those diamonds has really kept me going lately. We all need friends that know exactly what to say and when to say it, but even when they have no clue what to say they still listen and that’s what I appreciate most.

My diet has been going well and I’ve lost 3lbs! I lose and gain weight very easily so let’s hope those 3lbs are gone forever. 

I didn’t eat very much today but I haven’t really been feeling myself. I’m not finding it at all hard eating basically the same things every day which I expected to get bored of.

My dog went to the vet!

Rosie went to the vets as she isn’t losing any weight and her breathing is very weird. They said she has a heart murmur 😦 I’ve suspected this for a long time but of course no one listened to Dr. Ems. 

Apart from that, nothing much happened today. I’ve got to be up early for the doctors and then I have my interview at 4pm! All which I’ll talk about tomorrow. So I’m going to try and get an early night, which is going to be very hard since I have run out of the tablets that combat the insomnia I get that’s caused by the sertraline. x

Nothing much has happened today 

I’m sad :(

Not gonna be a proper blog post tonight because I’ve not been feeling my best. I don’t want to go into it too much but an emptiness came back. The feeling of just being nothing, irrelevant, forgotten and not know what to do with yourself next. I’ll never understand why good people get treated so bad, so unfair. I’ll never ever understand why I’ve been hurt like this, why me and my issues couldn’t have been nurtured and protected like fine china or the flowers trying to hold on through autumn. When my heart is filled with nothing but love, kindness and honesty (and maybe sass).

Moving swiftly on because I’d rather not think about it before the next wave comes.

I actually couldn’t start my diet plan Tuesday! I completely forgot that I was planning to start this the day of my mums birthday and I was treating the family to a meal out. And no I didn’t forget my mums birthday I just didn’t think when I was planning, which day to start my diet on.

I did however eat my planned breakfast and lunch! I had never tried rye bread and I was pleasantly surprised. I don’t know how to explain the flavour but it is quite unique. The rye bread paired rather oddly with the cheese triangles but I did enjoy it!

For a snack I had one of my little prepared bags of candy floss grapes. I think they taste like candy floss at first but the taste quickly moves on to that of regular green grapes. My sister tried 2 and spat both out, which I was surprised by because I thought they tasted lovely. I gave her the second grape to try because I was certain she must have tried a rotten one the first time, but apparently not.

This is when I remembered we were going out for dinner…

We went to Toby Carvery and I stuffed myself with a plate of a mixture of meats, two Yorkshire puddings, stuffing & some of the lovely creamy potato dish they had.

We of course had to eat birthday cake didn’t we. So I had a slice of the Cadbury Flake cake.

I didn’t eat past 21:00 which is a miracle for me and I worked out that I surprisingly only went over the amount of calories I would have preferred to consume by around 200. I was shocked at this because I felt like I ate so much and I could have easily consumed so many more calories. I haven’t set myself a specific total caloric intake but I need to make sure I’m in a calorie deficit, so I’m hoping to stay 1,400 or under which I should be for the rest of the week.

I’ve taken my tablets for tonight and I’m hoping to head straight to sleep. One can dream. x

Meal prep!

So my containers arrived Monday morning! I failed to stop the after midnight 5 course meals i’ve been having so i decided it was time to take action!
I went to Aldi in the evening to shop for all the ingredients that i needed. I’ll write up a full list later in this post with all the measuments and calorie info.
Here is my entire shop, all prepped!

Let’s start with breakfast:

Breakfast will be a sachet of aldi’s instant oats, made with skimmed milk and topped with salted caramel and ginger granola. I may even add a teaspoon of almond butter to get in those healthy fats.
total calories: 348

Lunch:

For lunch I’ll be having a slice of wholemeal rye bread topped with a cheese triangle (because you know I gotta sneak cheese in there somewhere).
Total calories: 174

Snacks:

To snack on I bought some bananas, a mixture of green and red grapes and to treat myself I picked up some cotton candy grapes! In those 2 bags there are smaller bags each containing 100g of grapes, so that I know exactly what I’m eating and I hopefully won’t be tempted to eat too much. Oo and i also picked up some gum to keep my mouth busy between meals 😂

Dinner: 

For dinner I cooked 500g of chicken breasts in the oven at gas mark 5 for 35 minutes. I seasoned both sides with steak seasoning as that is my favourite seasoning to pair with chicken when I cook it at home. I used 3 whole heads of broccoli, got the total weight and divided that by 5 then put each 133g into my containers. I chose rice to be the part of my main meal that I switch up. On 2 days I’ll have 125g of classic white rice, another 2 days I will have 110g of wholegrain and quinoa rice and for the last day 125g of egg fried rice.

Drinks:

In the morning I’ll be starting my day with a glass of cold water followed by a cup of green tea. I used to drink a lot of green tea and even though it doesn’t taste all that great, it has grown on me and I look forward to drinking it. I also plan to drink as much water throughout the day as I can. I’m a massive water drinker and cold tap water is my favourite drink so it shouldn’t be too hard for me.

Grenade and Bootea?

This week is purely going to be me following my eating plan. At the end of the week I’m going to weigh myself, see how much I have lost if I have lost anything and then note that down. Then next week I’m going to be taking the Grenade tablets along side my diet plan. The week after that I’ll be adding the Bootea mojito edition that I didn’t finish. I’m doing this so I can see how the Grenade pills and the tea work.

My full list, measurements and calories:
– Aldi Instant Oats golden syrup: 1 sachet 148 calories
– Aldi Salted Caramel & Ginger Granola: 30 grams 137 calories
– Aldi Nature’s Pick Bananas: 1 Banana 90 calories
– Aldi Seedless Mixed Grapes 100g 66 calories
– Aldi Specially Selected Cotton Candy Grapes 92 grams 55 calories
– Aldi Emporium Kids Cheese Triangles 1 Triangle 36 calories
– Mestemacher Wholemeal Rye Bread 1 slice 138 calories
– Aldi The Foodie Market Almond Butter 1tsp 29 calories
– Aldi Ashfield Farm Chicken Breast 104 grams 110 calories
– Aldi Broccoli 133 grams 33 caloriez
Aldi Worldwide Foods Classic Long Grain Rice 125 grams 186 calories
– Aldi Worldwide Foods Wholegrain & Quinoa 110g 185 calories
– Aldi Worldwide Foods Egg Fried Rice 125g 194 calories
– Wrigley’s Extra Gum 1 pellet 2 calories